How I can offer my energy to the world around me?

A few days have gone by and I have enjoyed the time off. I have had coffee with a friend. I have gone to thai chi. I have made good dinner, and pulled weeds in the yard. 

 However, I have looked at old journals and a theme has come up in my life when not working: loneliness. 

I have been contemplating on this idea and the conclusion is: my heart is thinking about what it can gain from the outside world and yet what I really want is somewhere I feel useful so I could instead focus on what I can give. 

I am most comfortable creating connection in person.

In the quiet of my little house I can only connect with the cat (if she feels like it). There is this feeling of waiting until I am employed then I can give my energy to others. 

Somehow I think that is a silly waste of my days. 

I have more to offer than comfort for the cat. 

But how do I begin to connect with the world I live in? 

• I have tried Coffee Shops (As my Papa said "Coffee in Portland coffee-shops is as much as a bag of coffee".) 
• I have tried libraries (Libraries are quiet so there is no "working together"). 
• I joined a volunteer agency (the coordinator stood me up three times so at some point I just gave up). 

I am sure there is someone, somewhere who needs a helping hand. I live a blessed life. I am not lonely but I a need to give to the world I live in. I think many women may age may do this by raising children. And yet I have heard some of them also say they are lonely and that loneliness stays if at a party or with others. 

Perhaps, just as in the Wiccan tradition, what we give out comes back to us. I will not claim loneliness I will claim time on my hands to help anyone who needs me.